An Offering of Love

Carl Larsson, October, 19th Century

Carl Larsson, October, 19th Century

I’ve recently realized, there aren’t many spiritual resources for a person juggling multiple responsibilities in life. I’ve read a lot of books designed for priesthood, warriors, spiritual seekers, advanced students, etc. I found very little reference, not to mention actual help, for someone who maintains a professional career, works 10+ hours a day, keeps a home in addition (including all such mundane activities as doing the laundry, cooking, cleaning, watering plants and feeding the dog), has a spouse, takes care of children (or elderly parents/other dependents, for that matter), volunteers on a regular basis, and desperately attempts to fit a few hobbies in there too.

If one’s goals include attuning with divinity, personal growth, taking responsibility,  involvement in the community and helping others – then one is committed to a lifelong process of spiritual practice. However, there is a difference between committing to a lifelong spiritual journey, and devoting one’s whole life for spirituality.

Most resources are written by the latter: fine people who dedicate every minute of their time for spiritual practice. Often, they are priests, teachers, or full time writers. Usually they have great insights, but sometimes, their perspective seems too narrow, at least for me. Not anything they do on purpose, I’m sure, but really, how can someone with 24 hours a day at their disposal for working with the divine can understand the struggle to find 10 minutes a day for prayer or meditation between the never-ending dishes, pressing errands, and quarterly goals at work?

Some books even contain offensive remarks. Certain authors unabashedly declare that if you don’t find X hours a day for performing certain meditations, prayers or exercises, for example, then you cannot be considered a “serious student”, and perhaps spiritual growth “isn’t for you”.

For almost two years now I’ve been trying to solve this problem of finding the time for spiritual practice. I’ve consulted all my books, read hundreds of online articles, and talked about this with friends, teachers and former mentors. Everyone told me the same thing: you must find more time.

But finding more time basically means to abandon my marriage (a very time consuming affair), move out of my own home into a rented flat that I wouldn’t have to nurture because it isn’t mine, eat fast/processed food, give my dog up for adoption, find another legal guardian for my autistic sister, tell my elderly mother to find someone else to help her with errands, and quit my job. Needless to say I don’t want to do any of those things. I love  my husband, I adore my home, I enjoy cooking healthier food, I want to help my mother, and I definitely want to keep my career.

Slowly, I’m beginning to realize that for me, with my hectic schedule, I shouldn’t even bother to find separate time for prayer or meditation on a daily basis. What I should do, instead, is turn every mundane act in my life into an offering of love.

I think that if I cut every vegetable with intention, wash every piece of laundry with full awareness, and breathe deeply as I give each plant in my garden just the right amount of water it needs, then the cooking and the laundry can be my direct path for divinity, no less useful or meaningful than sitting in silent meditation.

But as I said in the beginning of this post, I’ve recently realize that there aren’t many resources about how to do this well.

Perhaps this is my new spiritual challenge.

3 comments for “An Offering of Love

  1. Caz
    August 8, 2010 at 2:40 pm

    Hey, just found your website, and I love what you’ve wrote here. Spiritual practise should be part of everyday life in my opinion. Yes its great to find time to do some meditation, ritual etc, but we cannot all always find time, and really, life is meant to be about balance, and too me, spending too much time in spiritual practice is unbalanced.

    I have a bit of spare time at present for the first time in, well almost ever, so am enjoying really learning and practising some spiritual stuff, but I am well aware that as soon as I get back into work, I will need to work something out.
    Back when I was working my morning ablutions where probaly the most spiritual time of my day, the bathroom became my sanctuary and shrine lol.

    Let us know how this is going for you.


  2. February 8, 2011 at 8:09 am

    I think you have found “the secret” already – it was always about turning everything mundane into something sacred – or maybe just recognizing the sacred in everything mundane…It occurs to me, reading your post, that Life was given to us – this is how it arrived – in all its “everydayness”. It can’t possibly be that only the meditating and prayer part – half an hour a day at home, hours a day in a cloister, or in the wind and rain by the Wall – would be “sacred” and all the other breaths would somehow not be? It seems to me that real spirituality is as you are describing it, built into the very fabric of each thought, each smile, each small thing we do. What a lovely post…

  3. June 17, 2011 at 2:41 am

    I’ve read somewhere about this kind of meditation, a budist monk said that we can transform any everyday errand into a moment of meditadion, just by focus in what we’re doing. Loved your blog.

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